Tuesday, July 15, 2014

I Promise

Sunday evening I binge watched Gossip Girl episodes. Once I felt I couldn't handle anymore dramatic twists for the night, I stopped and went over to The College Prepsters blog to read her posts for the week. On Friday Carly posted videos she watched throughout the week. One particular youtuber, Anna Akana, peaked my interest. I went to Anna's channel, and was blown away by her ability to jampack insightful advice into funny short videos.  Although I value Anna Akana's makeup tutorial that Carly posted,  her youtube post on "How to Change Your Life" hit more close to home.

How To Change Your Life: http://youtu.be/NMcGF5uB00Q

I think this video specifically resonates with me because of how badly I want to keep up with this blog. Whenever I check Carly's posts I'm amazed on how she has changed over the years. Her readers see her accomplish the big milestones in her life and triumph over her smaller achievements. I have read her feelings about graduating from college, meeting a man she feels truly comfortable with, and even overcoming her fear of tall heels. I'm inspired by her documenting her past in a way that easily shows her future.

I realize that I have to ask myself why I really want this blog to work. Is it to be a famous blogger, or is the reason something else entirely? I fear forgetting the small milestones in my life. I worry that the big milestones will just be a vague accomplishment in my past. I want a permanent document somewhere that showcases and explains my worries and success. Regardless on whether there will be readers reading my blog, I want a safe haven where I can work out the thoughts in my head and be able to find my writing voice.

I write this post to promise to myself that I will write on this blog at least once a week for myself.

Monday, May 5, 2014

Testing Galore

What frightens a high schooler the most? The dark? Pfft of course not! Dying? Psha us teens live forever! No, it is testing. The AP, SAT, ACT, and exams are upon high schoolers throughout the nation. As one of the teens being forced to endure all three subjects, I have to say I have passed the stage of nervousness. Now only a vague sense of fear hangs over me. I will be the first to admit that I have gone without sleep and my body is officially filled with its share of black coffee. I will also admit that I may have turned to stress eating a few days out of the week. As I am going through the last few weeks of the most unpleasant year of High school, I wonder if I am going through it alone.

Many students in my school seem to have their academic life together. Sure after a graded test is passed out I hear grumbling, but that's right before they complain about their A. Whatever my score is, I now have a base score that I need to compare my test to. It only makes me feel that much worse when I know how much effort I put into studying for that test. Especially at this time of the year when I'm slammed with testing daily. Because of this situation and many like it, I feel frequent moments of absolute terror that I believe I'm in this fourth quarter battle alone.

Friday I was on a run with my friend, and president of my Class, through the park. (I would like to take this moment and say that there will be posts on the magnificence of this park!) We started talking about College which soon led to us talking about our end of the quarter schedule. We were both surprised to find out that each was just as frustrated as the other with testing. Imagine the relief that overcame me when I found out my friend, a friend who seemed to be taking the last few weeks in stride, was just as anxious as I am for the last few weeks.

I sometimes make the mistake of believing people who appear happy and who seem to handle the workload are better off than I am relating to their stress level, but I believe this year has harshly taught me that sometimes what people seem like on the outside may not showcase what their going through. When you are struggling and everyone else seems to be in good shape, maybe their not? And maybe, even you may give the impression to others that you are coping well when you really are not. Imagine my surprise when my friend exclaimed that I was the one that seemed care free and unburdened!

Are you going through testing/ due date anxiety? Comment below!

Sunday, February 23, 2014

A Little Party Never Killed Nobody

After such a stressful and painful week from oral surgery and catching up on missed school days, the weekend was SO much better! 

Saturday was Winter Formal. Taylor, Ana, my brother, and I went to Lemongrass beforehand at Short North. Traffic and parking was a headache, but I was definitely in good company!

The theme was Great Gatsby. So adorable!

I definitely did not have the patience for Blackjack, but Ana was a pro.

I was so impressed with the special aerialist performance later in the dance (she was a sophomore at my school)! I'm glad that we stuck around for it.

The trio wound down the day with a scary movie and many, many snacks! We woke up Sunday with blueberry pancakes, cinnamon rolls, a river of coffee, and fun conversation.

Friday, February 14, 2014

Valentine's Galore

I had such a great Valentine's Day. Who was my Valentine you ask? My mother! I was pretty excited when I went into my bed after a long Thursday night to find the card. Pfft who even needs a man when you have a great mother by your side! The next school day was great for many reasons. It was Valentine's Day, dress down day, and it was Arts Mania. After school my mother and I had a great mother daughter night. We also picked up new prescription glasses. All in all, a pretty fulfilling day!

It was such a great experience performing taiko drumming and being able to learn more about Japanese  history!

The drummers were extremely good. Their music was not the only magnificent part of the performance, but also just they way they presented themselves!

 I had SUCH a great time with the Zumba instructor! She incorporated different body movements to the steps I was used to. I can't wait to mix her advice with what I know for Spring.

Note: Not pictured was the Tai Chi instructor. I was impressed with how calming the moves were, and his lesson on the history of Tai Chi as a defense definitely caught my attention. 

I learned a fair amount of different types and forms or Art today that I never knew, and was educated more about the subjects that I was already interested in. Overall a great experience!

Valentine's Galore

What did you do for Valentine's Day?

Thursday, February 13, 2014

Time Capsule

I have not been consistent with writing on here. I ignored That Ethiopian because, in my mind, life came up. I believe it was really because I was so stressed from everything.

Last week a boy from my Advisory did his Junior Speech. One part of his speech that really stuck with me was the little story that he told. For a few months in his Sophomore year he consciously wrote in his Journal. He thought it was really stupid until he looked back and read his notes. In that moment, he was transported a year back.

Another boy in my class said it well, "right now will be the oldest you have ever been, and the youngest you will ever be."

Last quote: "You die twice. One time when you stop breathing and a second time, a bit later on, when somebody says your name for the last time." I have many fears, but the biggest one is the concept of time. I hate to imagine the future without my friends and even imagining a change with my family is a hard thought to stomach. Thinking about my past also brings sadness. I think of time passing and how in the future I might not be what I hope to become. I want to document my life, I want to be remembered somehow.

I think the craziest part about this is that I will read this post far off in the future as an adult and so much will have changed. I wonder how I will look at this bitter-sweet post, I have so many questions for future me!

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Student Diversity Leadership Conference

I'm so excited! Today I will be boarding the plane to Maryland for a leadership conference. I believe this will be a great opportunity for BOS, a club that I am helping lead, and for what I would love to accomplish later in my lifetime (more on both of these in a post in the future!).

Although I can't wait to get started with my trip, I have been really stressed over the amount of schoolwork I will be missing! Last night I stayed up late enough that I became not tired, weird I know. By the end of my study session with Physics and APUS I had pages upon pages of notes, and the words started to mesh together in my journal! I know that the cramming session was definitely not the best way to study, but I writing the notes enables me to study the notes throughout the week. Even though I have tests right after the trip will be over, I do not think I will be regretting the conference.

Representing my school and going to Maryland for a leadership conference on Diversity is  true honor. This convention will be a blast and I'll make sure to write about it on my blog later this week

Sunday, December 1, 2013


So I was searching the interwebs for perfect christmas presents and I happened upon the BEST thing ever!

Liya Kebebe is a big role model for me. She shows that two cultures can blend seamlessly. Taken from her website, http://www.lemlem.com/pages/about: "Supermodel / actress and former World Health Organisation's Goodwill Ambassador for Maternal, Newborn and Child Health, Liya Kebede"..."started Lemlem in 2007 as a way to inspire economic independence in her native country and to preserve the art of weaving."
  Here are some of the pieces that I really enjoy:

There are a lot of great handcrafted pieces of clothing and accessories that you should definitely check out that were not shown in this post! *cough* great for Christmas presents!